The BLACK Marble... Uh, oh...

Today, for the first time, Miss V drew the BLACK MARBLE out of the container. In case you don't know what that implies, the BLACK MARBLE means that I will get denied in a special way. I have come up with a series of cards indicating several ways in which I would like Miss V to deny me, and the idea was that whenever this marble came up, she would pick her preferred card and made me "suffer"it. Well, today was that day.

I gave the cards to Miss V and she asked me if she was supposed to pick at random. I explained (again) that she can read them and pick her favorite, but after reading through them all, she told me that she wanted to pick one at random, but that she didn't want any that required her to do work. I thought that was a very adequate position for her, and told her that there is nothing she HAS to do. If she doesn't like the card, she can change it for another, modify the activity or simply do nothing. She decided to pull a card at random and began to shuffle them as my erection raged on and my heart raced. These cards have some fantasies of mine that we have never tried, so I was not sure what her reaction was going to be.

She pulled the first card. It was a denial card. I would be required to write a letter to Miss V every day, for the next 7 days, begging for her to deny me and giving her a reason why she should do so. The reasons needed to vary each day. Of course, in her generosity, Miss V. would honor my humble petitions.

"Meh,"she said placing the card back in the bottom of the deck (I have a total of 12 cards). "I don't really like this one"

She proceeded to draw a second card. On this one, I will be submitted to some anal training, with the goal of making me have an anal orgasm (I've never have one). She will give me the opportunity to "buy" a number of tries at anal action at the price on one GREEN MARBLE each, to see if I manage to reach an orgasm. If I don't, I get denied until the next try. Of course, during this training program, she still gets to have as many orgasms as she wants.

"Do you want to do this?" she asked, showing me the card. I said yes and she asked me a couple questions to clarify the intent. We agreed that each try would be on separate days, and that she would do it until she gets tired, if I have not come by then, it is a failure. She also wanted to make the number of tries random, and actually asked me for a die to roll. I gave her one and the roll came to be 3.

This means that the next three times we engage in sex, I will not get to come, unless I do it as the receiver of anal sex. If I don't manage to come while she is doing me, she is free to have me do anything to get her off, but I will remain denied. Since the card did not specify that that attempts would be on consecutive days, and I don;t think that would be a fair expectation, I don't really know how many days of denial I just added to my chain. For now, Miss V told me that she is very tired (I knew that, so I was surprised that she even drew a marble) and that all she wanted was to sleep in tomorrow, so she asked me not to bother her in the morning. She said that she will tell me when my first "chance" will be.

Interestingly, when the BLACK MARBLE came out, Miss V asked me what were the odds of that particular marble coming out, since there is only one, and I calculated it at 5.8% (1 out of 17). This means I got very lucky (or unlucky, depending on your point of view) to get this marble today. Of course, the idea of the BLACK MARBLE is to be a constant high-stakes, but low-probability risk.

On this case, it earned me three sessions of anal sex, with the added complication that If I don't come like a girl, I don't get to come at all. Do I think at I will reach an orgasm? Sincerely, no. However, I've been denied for 10 days already, which may come into play, especially if she orders me to come while she does my ass.

I'd be interested in hearing your opinion on this.

VERY happy in 5 minutes.

"Wake up!" said Miss V. in an urgent tone this morning. "If I can't sleep, you can't sleep".

I woke up as instructed and was about to ask what she wanted me to do when she suddenly ordered to take my pants off. 

"You have 5 minutes to make me happy," she said. "VERY happy."

She leaned over me as I pumped my penis to make it hard enough for penetration. "That's right,"she said then. "Wake it up... Faster!"

At that moment, it suddenly came to life, springing to attention. Not a fully fledged super hard, mind you, but the change was notieable to the naked eye.

"Wow, that WAS fast!" She said, grabbing it and priming it a little more. "Good boy!"

She turned her back towards me and offered me her beautiful round bottom, which I proceeded to take. She grabbed my right hand and crossed it over to her crotch and my left, which was under her, to her right nipple. She also pointed to her neck, a sign that means that she wants me to bite her.

Normally, she prefers one type of stimulus at a time, but she was a woman in a schedule.

She had one orgasm and pulled away from the hand that was playing with her nipple. I think the nipples became too sensitive after her orgasm and it stopped being pleasurable. By then, I was close to my own orgasm, but doing three things (now two) at the same time helped to keep it at bay.

After her orgasm, she turned face down and I pulled me to climb over her. This is a favorite position of mine, and she uses it to good effect, expecialy when she is tired, or ready for me to finish off. I accelerated the pace, realiing that the 5 minutes were probably close to over by then.

"Are you happy?" I asked as I felt my edge was approaching fast.

"I'm a little happy," she purred. "But I could be happier..."

By now, I had to look out the window, think of other things and otherwise maintain my mind occuppied to avoid a spill. It was hard (in more than one way), but I managed to resist until she had her second orgasm, a softer but longer one that seemed to relax all her muscles as it subsided.

"Up,"she said patting my hand. "You are done".

Happily frustrated, I dropped to her side and asked her how happy she was now.

"VERY happy,"she responded stretching. 

Then, before she left, she started to give instructions of all the things she wanted me to do today, tyhen she left, leaving me happily frustrated, with plenty to do and with a wide smile on my face.

It's been a good day so far.

How things are right now

I have not posted in a while, so I thought it was perhaps time to provide an update on how things are going.

First of all, although I continue to feel as submissive as ever, with my needs and wants of domination, sometimes I am not as helpful around the house as I need to, which affects V's mood, and bring her expectations down. Recently she has been asking me if I can maybe try to do something, as oppossed to giving me an order. This is so counterproductive that I feel like not doing it at all, whioch then causes a half-ass effort, low quality service, frustration and even lower future expectations. You could say that I am caught in a vicious circle right now.

I know, I know... I have all the tools and the knowledge to try to get out of this, but it is so hard not to let the moods affect you. I have not have sex in 9 days, but I can't call it denial, because V has not had any either. It is just lack of intimacy, caused by the fact that V now has 2 jobs and her time off is when I'm at work on mine.

I'm trying once more to bring the dynamic to life. The one thing that helps is that this time, I do it from an informed position, meaning that V knows that I want her to use sex as a tool to dominate me.

Here are two recent events that show this.

The first one was last night. I asked her if there was a chance that she would draw a marble later and she said no. Then she added, that since I crave her so much and I love her feet, that she was going to allow me to rub them. I smiled, and she became a little bossy, ordering me to take her used plate to the sink, and wash it, go get her water bottle and fill it and bring the lotion while I was at it.

I did everything as instructed, and then sat on the floor, in front of her, with her feet on my lap and gave them a long massage, including some kisses. At one point she asked me if I was comfortable down there, to which I replied by placing one of her feet in position over my erection. ""Yes, I am" I said.

The next was today, when she asked me to take her to work. She had mentioned earlier that I had to make sure that everyone ate and cleaned up after themselves, to which I had agreed. While we were in the car, I asked her what would the odds be of having a woman engage in something sexual with me tonight.

"If you are a good boy and do everything she says," she said. "I'd say there is a pretty good chance".

"Oh, I like that. And what does she want me to do?"

"She already told you," she said, repeating what she had said before.

When I dropped off in front of her building, I told her that I would do anything she said. She smiled and said, "Then, I want an immaculate kitchen."

So, you see, there is still hope here, although I'd very much prefer that she was more blatant in her use of me than she is, but I guess that before I get that, I need to demonstrate that I am a willing subject to such use. For all that matters right now, all I need to worry about it to make the kitchen immaculate.

And that's where I'm headed right at this very moment.

EDIT: (4 hours later)

I made sure everyone ate, cleaned the kitchen, including the floors and the stove and when Miss V came home, she found it to her liking. Once in the bedroom, she drew a marble from the container, and it was RED (if you have not been following this, a RED marble indicates denial for me).

"And I didn't cheat," she said before explaining that she was too tired to really enjoy me "making her happy" but that she would save it for the morning. For now, she explained, handing me the bottle of lotion, "you are going to give me a foot rub and dream about how much fun I am going to have in the morning."

"I can do that," I said, getting to work in her foot rub.

Later during the rub, I kissed her feet and thanked her. When she asked why, I said that I was grateful that she had given me the opportunity to show her my love by giving her a foot massage.

"You love my feet, eh?" she asked rethorically, then added "perhaps I can make you give me a pedicure, since you love my feet so much."

I said that I'd love to do it, if she told me how, and she agreed that she will. Then she added that she knws that I will do a great job, because I'm very talanted (her words).

So that's it. She didn't touch or tease, but I was leaking by the time I finish rubbing her feet. I need to go to sleep now, basking in the amazing power V has and hopefuly dreaming about the pleasure I'll get to give in the morning, as she instructed me.

"Good to know..."

Just like the first time we played our orgasm denial game with the marbles, I have been denied for 10 days. (that time it was 11). For the first few days, Miss V was on her period and she didn't tease me or anything, but after that, she had taken the baton and has gotten 4 orgasms to my none.

Today, she pulled me over, made me put my leg between hers and rubbed herself against me.

"Are you horny?" she asked.

"Yes," I answered, of course.

"Good to know," she said, pulling away and leaving. "I have to go to work, but it is good to know."

She is about to get home again, and I'm hoping for a GREEN marble. The scary part is that there is the new BLACK (it's actually blue, for now) marble that can give me a full week of tease and denial. I want that one to come out, but not when I have had 10 days of pure RED marbles...

We'll see what comes out tonight.

Now, I have to go work out.


EDIT:

I did work out and switched another marble from RED to GREEN. It's looking like a lot of GREEN in the container, but still she drew a RED one... She said she wanted a foot rub and a back rub, and told me that "it needed to be a good one, because I had gotten a RED marble." When I asked for clarification, she explained that sometimes when I'm looking forward to sex, my massages are too short.

I ended up giving her a long foot and back rub, kissing her feet and her bottom repeatedly in the process. Now she sleeps, and I am horny as hell. How does she keep drawing RED marbles?

Well, tomorrow is another day (number 11)

Yesterday's RED Marble

I arrived from work a little late, and Miss V was already gone. I had been home for a while when I saw it, but it was on my bed. It was a single RED marble. I thought it was a joke of some kind, because V has never pulled a marble out when I'm not present, so I took a picture and sent her a message asking her if the marble was for real.

Bad quality (light was poor) but it's a RED marble...

Her reply: Awwww, poor baby!

When she came back home, she asked me what I was going to do.

"Whatever you say," I said as she took her shoes and pants off.

"That's right," she said laying on the bed with her laptop and pointing to her feet. I don't know why, but this by itself gave me an instant erection. I guess it is because it had been a while since she ordered me to do something by pointing with her finger, something I find extremely dominant.

I got into bed with her, reversed to her position and began to massage her left foot, interspersing kissing and licking. While I did that, she just worked on her computer, totally ignoring me. She only interrupted me twice, once to tell me that I needed to continue massaging her (I had gotten too involved with the licking part) and another when she wanted me to switch to the right foot. This she did by lifting her foot and putting it on my nose. It was kind of humiliating, and my penis throbbed as I complied with her unspoken commands. She could see it very well, because it was throbbing right next to her (I was naked)

After she finished working on her laptop, she simply pulled her feet away from me, covered herself with the blanket and told me she was done, good night, thank you very much.

She didn't touch my penis at all, or say a thing, but I felt deliciously teased, because I had a powerful erection the whole time. I felt frustrated when she just went to sleep, just like I like it.

The only thought I have is about her pulling the marble out before I came home. She's never done that before, and it makes me wonder if she really pulled the marble randomly or she intentionally got a RED one. I'm fine either way, but curious.

Actually, it would be better for me if she "cheated", because this means that she decided to be selfish and deny me. 

The Marbles

Like I said in the last post, we'll be playing marbles again.

 

The marbles that control my fate...

I've decided that little is better than none, and asked my wife, V to begin playing with orgasm denial again. She accepted quite readily, except that she wouldn't start until tomorrow. She allowed me to start earning beads on Sunday (yesterday) though, so I already have one.

I asked her if she was going to start at 50% (8 GREEN - 8 RED) or at 0% (0 GREEN - 16 RED) and she decided to go 50%, so now I have 9 and 7 (when earning a GREEN marble, it takes the place of a RED one.

V told me her pans for tomorrow and after describing several things she has to do on her last day at work, she said "then I'll come home, draw a marble and either have sex with myself while you watch, or have sex with you". Little friend was up in attention immediately.

"Oh, how cute!" she said, pointing at my flamboyant erection as she seductively changed into work clothes. "I know what you want, and you ain't getting any."

Boy, I've missed her teasing!

You might see a few marbles of a different color in the picture. Those are new additions to this year's game. There are three gold marbles and a dark blue marble, which is supposed to be black, but when coloring a marble black it came dark green, because of the glass and will be hard to distinguish from the green ones, so I temporarily assigned a dark blue one in it's place.

Here is the explanation of the marbles and their corresponding rules. The RED and GREEN marbles continue to mean the same, but I'm mentioning them here in case you don't know:

MARBLES BASIC RULES:

There are a number of different color marbles in a container. Each day I meet the conditions established by V, a green marble is deposited in the container and a red one is taken out. If I don't meet her conditions, the opposite happens, a red one in, a green one out. The proportion of colored marbles in the container, indicates my chances to have an orgasm. On a day when I add a red marble I definitely have no chance of having an orgasm and V can do with me as she pleases (including making me give her one orgasm or many). On a day when I earn a GREEN marble, V gets the choice of whether she wants sex or not, but instead of automatically allowing me to have an orgasm, she will draw a marble from the container. Green means "GO" and Red means "NO". Any limitations imposed by the marbles work only for me, not for her. She can always have as many orgasms as she pleases.


THE GREEN MARBLE:

How to get it: At the beginning of the game, there will be 8 GREEN marbles in the container. Every day that I meet the conditions that V sets for the day, I get to add one (and remove a RED one). Every Sunday, there is a reset, and 5 GREEN marbles are turned into RED.

What it does: Whenever V draws a GREEN marble, I will be allowed to have an orgasm. V selects the time and the manner of this orgasm.

THE RED MARBLE:

How to get it: At the beginning of the game, there will be 8 RED marbles in the container. Every day that I don't meet the conditions that V sets for the day, I have to add one (and remove a GREEN one). Every Sunday, there is a reset, and 5 GREEN marbles are turned into RED.

What it does: Whenever V draws a RED marble, I will not be allowed to have an orgasm. V then can ask for an alternative activity that ensures her enjoyment while leaving me denied.

THE GOLD MARBLE:

How to get it: If and when the container gets to 100% GREEN marbles, I can, with V's approval, use 5 of them to "purchase" a GOLD marble. (5 RED marbles will be added in place of the 5 GREEN ones spent to maintain the total or RED and GREEN at 16) Since GOLD marbles are extras, you can have any number of them in the container at a time, but only one can be 'purchased' when the container fills.

What it does: Whenever V draws a GOLD marble, treat it as a GREEN marble, except that I get a prize from a list that I will maintain for this purpose. If the list is empty or no prize available is acceptable to V, the GOLD marble will just be treated like a GREEN one. Also, if a prize is more elaborate or require resources not available at the moment, the prize can be postponed to the next suitable opportunity. Once a GOLD marble has been drawn, it is out of the game.

THE BLACK MARBLE:

How to get it: A unique BLACK marble will be added to the game. It will always be present in the container, representing a low, but constant risk.

What it does: Whenever V draws the BLACK marble, a period of denial will occur. These period of denial will be defined by duration, or by a certain pre-requisite that needs to be fulfilled by me before it can be over. During the period when the BLACK marble is in play, no other marbles can be drawn and any sexual activity will assume a RED marble. I will always maintain a list of at least 5 options for V to chose from or she can always make her own.

 

(Even) Another Attempt

Things have become incredibly busy in our home. My full time job continues to be as demanding as usual, but now V has two jobs. Her freelancing job continues to thrive and she has continuous work until at lest September, even if she doesn't get any additional calls between now and then. I think I can say that this is a great blessing at a time when many people are without jobs. Her day job will be over in a week, and she already has another one lined up for after the summer (I think she starts in August) so no unemployment in our household.

These blessings have not come without a price however, and that price has been in our FLR efforts. Since V has been so busy, and our hours mostly non-compatible, I was not seeing enough of her and abstinence was becoming the norm. I stopped working out and we talked about the situation and we decided to call it quits with the orgasm denial. I could not afford to be denied in the once a week time I saw her. We have not played since January until now (May). I thought it was a lost cause and I'd never go back to play, and even took matters into my own hand a couple of times (or a little bit more) until now. Yeah, I know. Pessimist me taking over, like it tends to happen whenever I'm low on sexual stimulation. The worst part is that she asked me twice during this time if I wanted to play again and I refused

WHAAAAT???

Let me explain. I was not rude or anything, I said something like this: "Honey, I love to play. I love it when you have control of my orgasms, but right now, I don't see you enough, and if I see you once in two weeks, and you deny me that one day, I'm not going to be getting anything that I need. No denial, because it is so rare, and no sex either, so instead, I'll get the worst of both worlds."

She understood. (I think)

Now, after having a period where Handy has given me more orgasms than V, I feel the lack of fulfillment again. It always comes back, that depressing feeling that keeps saying that everything is worthless and that there is nothing I can do to help it. Anyway, out of desperation I texted her with a request: "Would you play marbles with me again?"

She answered that she would, but not until her contract with her day job expired. I asked when does it expire and she said that her last day is Tuesday, May 14 and that we could begin again on that very same day.

I don't know how it's going to be, or anything, but I feel grateful that she's still willing to do this.

Next time I saw her, was the day after the messages, and after saying hello, she said "So, you are going to start working out again, eh?

I answered in the affirmative and added, "and anything else you may want".

So, here I am, getting ready to go to work (Sunday night work... yay... how exciting... ho-hum) while she is working (double ho-hum) and also wondering how we are going to do this. She seems to think that we will have more time and I have my doubts, but there is nothing I could do unless I decide to save forget the whole thing.

I need this thing and will have to resign myself to get whatever she is willing to give.

So this is another shot... another chance to get this moving in the right direction. I wonder how far we have fallen and how quickly we can recover. I need to be specially attentive and obedient in the first few weeks so she regains whatever confidence she may have lost.

I have two new colors of marbles that I want to introduce, and this might be a good time. She has hinted before at wanting to add other colors but not knowing what to do with them so I will be making an additional post here to describe them.

Now, I wish myself Good Luck...