Thursday, April 29, 2010

Quest Renewed

After the comments left by At All Times in my latest post and reading the blog A Wonderful Journey, I have thought hard about my desires to submit.

Do I really want to submit to V?

Am I willing to do whatever she needs me to do to make her happy, satisfy her needs and encourage her dominance, in that order?

Why do I become lazy and unenthusiastic sometimes?

After much thought, I have decided that I can't give up my quest. I have lived with the need to submit for many years, even though I only identified what my "problem" was until a few years ago, and can't afford to continue living life unfulfilled. If I'm unfulfilled and frustrated I won't be able to make my wife as happy as she deserves to be. If I search for release of my need to submit on other women, even imaginary ones, I would be unfaithful to the one who gives me her everything. I can't do that. My relationship is sacred and permanent. I can't be unfaithful to V.

So, what's left?

This is it. I have to do it. She doesn't know what I need and I'm too afraid to tell her, so I'll have to be patient and understanding. I have come to the following resolutions:

1) I WON'T GO TO BED AT NIGHT UNLESS I HAVE PERFORMED AT LEAST ONE ACT OF SERVICE TO MY WIFE

2) I WILL CONTINUE TO LOOK FOR SUBTLE WAYS TO EMPOWER HER, ENCOURAGING HER DOMINANT BEHAVIOR BUT NEVER COMPLAINING ABOUT HER VANILLA BEHAVIOR

3) I WILL ACCEPT MY WIFE'S WISHES AND PREFERENCES WITHOUT TRYING TO FORCE ANY UNWANTED CHANGE IN HER

4) I WILL BE PATIENT IN UNDERSTANDING THAT IF SHE DOES NOT ACCEPT MY SUBMISSION, IT IS MY OWN FAULT FOR NOT HAVING REALLY OFFERED AND NOT A PERSONAL REJECTION.

5) I WILL LOOK FOR WAYS TO INTRODUCE THE CONCEPTS OF FLR IN SAFE, NON-THREATENING WAYS.

6) MY WIFE AND HER NEEDS WILL ALWAYS COME FIRST, WAY BEFORE MY NEEDS FOR DOMINATION.

All of the above will be my work for the future.

I started immediately by cleaning our room before going to bed last night. She noticed that I tidied up a little and mentioned it.

Later today, or tomorrow, I will continue with what happened at night and at morning, and also with whatever act of service I perform tonight. There's much to do and she's going out, so perhaps I'll be able to do quite a bit.

We'll see...

Later.

1 comment:

  1. I wish you sucess in your efforts! One reason I named my blog A Wonderful Journey is because I knew it would be a long process to get to a WLM. I'm no where near a WLM, but I'm closer now than when I started.

    You've got a good start on these resolutions.

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