Thursday, August 22, 2013

Reason 2 of 12: The thrill of the chase and the hunt never dissipates

Recently, while enjoying some time off, I had time to think about why I want orgasm control and came up with a list of 12 reasons. These reasons were listed in the order they came to mind, which may or may not follow a logical order. After posting that list, I thought it would be a good exercise to post a brief explanation of each one of them, here is reason number 2.
FOR THE COMPLETE LIST OF REASONS, SEE THIS POST

 

I have shared this with my wife several times. Men are hunters that love to chase after prey. Once the prey is captured, the thrill of the hunt is over. I love how orgasm denial extends the hunt, making me think about the chase and ever-extending the thrill.

The hunt seems to be the essence of romance, and as I chase, my ever-elusive prey toys with me and I become obsessed with the catch, like the old man trying to catch the white whale. Looking after, giving my all to get it, only to see it dangling in front of me, so near and yet so far, this maintains a thrill that doesn't dissipate...

OK, well, it does dissipate when the desired prey is captured, but soon enough, I'm hunting again...

And I get the thrill all over again.

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Reason 1 of 12: I feel the need to subdue my urges and desires


Recently, while enjoying some time off, I had time to think about why I want orgasm control and came up with a list of 12 reasons. These reasons were listed in the order they came to mind, which may or may not follow a logical order. After posting that list, I thought it would be a good exercise to post a brief explanation of each one of them, here is reason number 1.
FOR THE COMPLETE LIST OF REASONS, SEE THIS POST

 

I have often felt that my sexual urges are like a beast that needs to be tamed in order to stop it from dominating every aspect of my life. In essence, it comes down to controlling what would otherwise control me, or putting it another way, to harness the energy of the beast and turn it into a good use.
When it comes to sex, I was a late bloomer, but if sex came late into my life, it came strong and unbridled. There was a time in my life when I became literally addicted to sex in a way that I could not be productive in any other endeavor and sex became an obsession, a powerful dominating force in my life. During the darkest hour of my addiction, I was having trouble concentrating on almost anything, and was having memory lapses, and moments when I simply lost the best use of my faculties and could say that my sexual urge was making decisions for me. The more I tried to repress the need, the stronger it became and the worse the result when I finally gave in to it.
I read once that an addict is never cured, but goes on remission.
Since my marriage, I have not had sexual encounters with anyone besides my wife, whom I love with all my heart (something I was not capable of doing during my addiction years). I was to give her my all, and not keep anything from her. This is the reason I want her to dominate my sexual life, because if this beast is not dominated, it has the potential, a very real and strong potential, to dominate me instead.
And this is my first reason.   

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

12 Reasons I want Orgasm Control

For a while now, I have had it clear in my mind that I want to surrender my sex life to my wife. I often wonder and perhaps speculate about the reasons for this, somewhat unconventional desire, but have never come to a concrete conclusion. Recently, while enjoying some time off, I had time to think about why I want orgasm control and came up with a list of 12 reasons. Here I present them in the order they came to mind, which may or may not follow a logical pattern. Perhaps I will offer a brief discussion of each in future posts and will link to them from here.

  1. Being under erotic control is – well, erotic
  2. When obtained, the orgasm is deeper and more intense
  3. It creates harmony in the relationship
  4. The ‘tease’ part of ‘tease & denial’ fills an emotional need for me
  5. It places my princess in a position of power, and I love powerful women
  6. Giving up my favorite hobby is a sacrifice in her honor that allows me to express my devotion
  7. It keeps me in a place of harmony and peace
  8. It prevents my addiction to sex from flaring up
  9. It keeps me in a subdued, more satisfied mode
Some of the thoughts above may seem duplicate (they do even to me right now) but when I thought of them they were perfectly distinct and separate. Maybe I'll change this as time goes by, but for now, here is my list of reasons.
How does it compare to yours, if you care to comment?

Coming from Behind, Attempt 2 of 3

The title of this post should read attempt 2 of 2.

Yes, I did it.

I came while being taken anally by my wife and her strap-on.

I didn't think it was going to happen. As a matter of fact, when I wrote the card that she pulled, my intent was to get more denial, but three days after the first attempt, she called me to the bedroom and told me that it was time to try again.

As it has happened on other times before, I came close to orgasm several times during the event, but could not reach it. When she declared that she was too tired to continue, I asked if she could lay back. Her answer was "ride on, baby!" And I had to make an effort to keep my eyes in their sockets, as if were...

I climbed on top, and asked for her to order me to come, but she said that she was not going to do that and if I came it would be all me. I came to the edge twice, but failed to complete, but as I was about to  give up, I felt a rush of blood to my brain (for lack of a better explanation) and decided to go ultra fast. I went up and down, hard, my balls hitting my wife's belly, my ass pounding the base of her dildo. My ass started to burn with the friction, and I was sweating profusely, but in the end, I came.

It was not the most powerful orgasm I've ever had (that honor still remains on a hand job), but I saw Miss V's smile at my "accomplishment" and I felt completely happy.

Now I can say that I have had an anal orgasm.

Another step on the ladder.