Sunday, April 6, 2014

Little change, still big hopes...

Been a while since my last post.

What has changed? Not much.

V still feels comfortable denying me and my number of orgasms is falling. The other day she said "This is becoming too easy for you" and she spilled all the marbles on the bed to check that I was not cheating. She said this because I had gotten two Green marbles in a row (even though the marbles were drawn days apart and there were only 5 on the pouch, compared to 11 red ones).

Another night, she told me she hoped a red marble would come out because she was in the mood for a massage, not for sex. I reminded her that a green marble does not force her to grant me an orgasm, and that if she wants, she can decide that the marble is red, without having to draw. She smiled, as if she had forgotten that (she seems to forget things often) and she said that I'd give her a massage, and that would be that, unless the massage was good enough to put her in the mood, in which case, the color of the marble would decide. She drew one secretly, and after my massage, she said "Screw me now, because I'm getting sleepy" and she showed me the green marble.

These are the last two green marbles I've gotten.

Something that changed this week is the condition for me to earn green marbles. For some reason, I'm having inflammation in my ankles and feet, so I am not able to work out. I am having problems even wearing my working shoes, and am considering that I may have to ask the doctor for a note with an exemption from wearing them. So, I have asked from a reprise from the requirement to work out, and asked for other conditions to be imposed. This week, because of this, I've been doing chores and fixing stuff around the house to earn my green marbles. The dishes have become my responsibility, and twice this week I had to do the laundry, including sorting and folding afterwards. I had to cook dinner three times as well.

Needless to say, doing all these is far more satisfying for me than the regular workouts.

Today, as a new week begins, and my feet are still not well, I'm going to ask V for another week of domestic servitude, and I'm going to ask her to make it harder, more demanding.

Another thing that changed was that she started giving orders to our kids as well. They've had had to make dinner and do laundry on days as well, while she has not cooked or done a dish the entire week.

As far as my kink goes, I'm still wanting a chastity belt and hard spankings, but this week, she ordered to spank myself twice for thinking about contradicting her. Very aware of the fact that a chance like this can only continue if I comply immediately, I dropped my pants and gave myself a hard slap on the buttocks with the silicon spatula (which is the best thing I've found so far for self-punishment) She just laughed at me and I said that it would have been more satisfying if she would have done it herself, but that since she ordered it, I enjoyed it too.

She's finally getting the idea that her tone matters. The other morning, she asked me to make her breakfast and described what she would like. I yes-honeyed her and then she looked at me and raising her voice a little said "Go make me breakfast!" I stood up right away and as I was walking to the kitchen, heard her say "I don't know which one works better" to which I answered "the second one" and she laughed again.

I hope her laughter is an indication that she is having fun and that more of it will come in the future. I need to explain to her that I want to be spanked hard and that she should ignore my body language, and I'd ask her to stop when I can't handle it no more.

Also, in the chastity device front, I think I'm going to ask her for a "trial"as my birthday gift. The trial would be able to be cancelled by any of the parties (although I know I'll do my best not to cancel it, the fact that I can, should give her confidence that I still want it) and extended as long as the parties want in order to feel satisfied that this is something we can both benefit from. After the trial, it will become her right and privilege to control, but I don;t think I will make a big deal out of it yet, because I have learned to take her dominance whenever I can and not impose new things too fast, to avoid scaring her.

So this is it for now: No big changes, but steady orgasm control and big hopes on my part.

Hopefully I'll be able to post more frequently.


  1. I'm loving your work! Asking for a chastity device for your birthday is a great idea - can't think of a better way to introduce it myself. You could say you find it hard to resist touching yourself at times and you worry that one day you'll make yourself orgasm and end up being temporarily less obedient as a result.

    1. Thanks! I shake in fear every time I think about asking, though. Miss V still has noy fully appreciated the full implications of my feelings for her, so I have learned to take whatever I can and go really slooooooooow...