Thursday, January 3, 2013

Orgasmic Vacation...

I have been very limited in my private time during the holidays, and my computer is located in a public area of the house (bad decision, getting a desktop, I know) so I have not been able to post anything for a few weeks.

First things first: I reset the orgasm counter on this page on January 1, as planned. My new year's resolution is to give Miss V. 200 orgasms in 2013. This may be high, but I think that if I am disciplined enough to encourage her playing more often, and if she continues to have 2 or 3 orgasms when I'm denied, it might be an achievable goal.

So, we have been on an orgasm denial hiatus for the past two weeks. When Miss V asked me what I wanted for Christmas I said that I wanted sex, so she offered to stop our orgasm denial game for a week, between Christmas and New Year's Day, but then decided to extend it to 2 weeks, until January 7, when she will leave on a business trip. This means that we have been having sex almost daily, with full orgasms for me, and I still have a few more days of "freedom" ahead.

Looking back, I have to say that I have enjoyed it very much. Miss V. has worn sexy outfits to bed almost every night, and I have been voracious in my appetite for her. During these past week and a half, I have not mentioned orgasm denial, but she has, and repeatedly, which I consider a good sign.

She has mentioned several times that on the day she leaves, our game starts again, and that I have one week to accumulate as many green marbles as I can, because when she returns there will be a surprise, and she hopes it will be a good surprise, not a bad one.

One day, while I was doing what I thought was perfectly acceptable foreplay, Miss V told me that she was not in the mood and that I was not helping. Then she said something that I'm still ruminating.

"This is the reason why it is better when we play the game," she said. "Because when you are playing, you talk sexy to me all day, and it gets me in the mood."

I guess is her way of saying that she has found some benefit in me being under our arrangement, which is a good thing. The real good thing is that now she WANTS to begin again, and I have not had to push or anything, so our position has gained some leverage in the sense that now she knows she wants to control my orgasms at least a little, and I'm not the only one wanting this.

One thing I've been doing during this free time, is collecting all the rules and changes and adaptations that we have made to our game so I can have them in one place. I am writing them down (on paper) and when I'm done, I'll give them to Miss V. for revision and will publish them here. This will help maintain a clear idea of what we are doing and what we need to change. It will also help me articulate some things that we have been "doing" but have not really "agreed" to, and some things that we have agreed to without being very specific. I want to present the rules to Miss V. electronically while she is on her trip, so that they are reviewed and fully in place by the time she returns.

The next stage if our arrangement is for Miss V to acknowledge and verbalize her control over me. I know she is ready for this, and hope that it comes sooner rather than later. However, contrary to the old days when I was hoping for her to go into some unknown territory unguided and without any idea of what I hoped, this time, things are different, because having left the proverbial closet, I have been very open in sharing my fantasies with her, and slowly, she has begun to enjoy the benefits as well.

So 5 more free days before I go on a week of abstinence (her trip) and who knows what afterwards (the game resumes)

Now that the visits are over, and people go back to their normal lives, I might be able to post a little more, so see you soon...


  1. If V is now starting to want to keep you denied and can feel or experience the benefits, you are more than half way there. In my opinion, a FLR can only really work if the woman wants it.

    You still keep calling it a "game", when do you think that V will stop referring to it as a "game" and begin to accept her control and your denial as way to encourage your submission

    1. I believe Miss V realizes that she has power over me whether we are playing games or not, but she prefers not to use that power most of the time. Even after she said the things I mentioned above, she became very casual about it.

      I think that our orgasm denial will still be a game for as long as we have gimmicks, like the red and green marbles and random chances for orgasms for me. If and when V makes a conscious desicion to just take over and take charge of my orgasms (or lack thereof) then it may stop being a game for me.