Saturday, December 3, 2011

A conflict of interest...

Wow, two posts in two days!

I must be high or something. Actually, I am high on arousal. If your read yesterday's post, you know that my wife tricked me (or I want to think she did) into giving her a full body massage that really turned me on and then left me hanging.

Well, this morning, as soon as she woke up, she jumped on me. "Forget everything," she said, her still naked body rubbing against mine while she bit my neck. "I don't want to do this anymore, let's have sex right now!"

I thought I'd be sad that she decided to end our arrangement, but I was so turned on by her that all I wanted was to grab her, pull her close and get the orgasm I'm starting to crave. After only a few moments of that, she asked me if I wanted her. I puffed a rough "YES!"

Then she stopped.

"Too bad," she said, pulling back and caressed her own body (she knows she's hot, although she denies it most of the time). "Look what you're missing."

"If you were good, you could have good things happen to you," she opened her mouth and placed my erect penis inside, but did not close it around it. Then she made it look as if she was going to lick it from the base to the tip, but her tongue only touched it for one painfully brief instant. It was bliss.

After that, she went to get ready and told me that I didn't have to get up yet, but game a list of things to do later. She said she wanted to clean up a little before leaving. I remembered that the sink was full of dishes that I had not done last night (no time for anything, remember?) and went ahead to do them.

"Good boy!" She said when she saw me doing dishes. I was wearing a bathrobe.

After I finished the dishes, which were many, she was getting ready to leave but she pushed me against the closet and kissed me. I tried to grab her but she pushed my hands away. "You can't touch me," she said. "Only I do the touching here. You don't deserve to touch. As a matter of fact, I'm withdrawing all pleasure from you." (Awesome word, 'withdrawing'. I have this thing for the dominant words she uses, especially when we have never used them in conversation before. One of these days I'll have to post about the power words have on me.)

She pulled my bathrobe open around my arms so that it exposed my chest and belly and didn't allow me the use of my arms or hands. Then she bent and licked me from just above the belly button to the neck, and started playing with my nipples. "Oh, poor you, so vulnerable!"

I was in a state where I would have agreed to whatever she said, and when she asked me "How does it feel?" I confessed that it felt as if there were nothing I could refuse to do for her and that I felt very energized and almost as if I was under the effects of a stimulant.

"Give me a million dollars," she said. I hesitated, then said "Okay," to which she laughed, because I don't have a million dollars to give her and she knows it, but if I had it, it would already be hers.

Then she said something that created a deep conflict of interest in me.

"If you don't work out while I'm gone, when I come back I will do that thing that I have not been willing to do to you because I felt bad for you". She's referring to making me give her an orgasm and then depriving me of mine.

I told her that she didn't need to feel bad for me and she replied, "Oh, I don't"

The conflict on interest is this: I have been denied for 5 days now, and for the last two she has teased me mercilessly, so I'm so horny I really want to go do as she's asking and work out, but on the other hand, I think her denying me while gratifying herself would be a huge step in the right direction, because if she gets the idea that she doesn't need to deprive herself of anything while keeping me denied, I think she may find it easier to dominate me in the future.

Right now, she's not home, so I have to make a decision to work out or not to work out.

I think I'll do it.

We have come so far, and she seems to be enjoying the power she has over me, that I don;t want to frustrate her by being disobedient. The fact that she threatened me with that, added to the fact that she kept yesterday's threat, tells me that she's warming up to the idea. I should not try to be contrarian or disobedient just to earn a punishment.

Who knows? Maybe one of these days she'll come to realize that denying me even after I obey her commands may be a good idea to keep me obedient for longer.

I love how she progresses in her dominance, and how all the months and years of stealth submission on my part have created some expectations from her. The fact that she seems to be enjoying what she's doing so far, tells me that she may take it further down the road.

Yes. Conflict of interest or not a decision has been made: Stop writing and go work out  right now...



  1. Omg...this is very, very hot! Now, the part with her licking you when She pulled the robe off you at the sink has me tenting... omfg! :) Good luck!

  2. I worked out and scored. Lucky too, because she was not feeling too well after her long day.

  3. I think it was the right thing to workout, let her see that you are obedient to her wishes, denial will I am sure come again.

  4. I always enjoy your posts. I love the fact that you are so eager to be denied to be kept obedient, even after you've already been obedient. I hope, the next time this opportunity arises, she denies you for another week when she gets back and hears you've been working out while she was away!

  5. Thanks for the comments.

    @AAT: That's my belief too. She already "threatened" me, so I should be patient until she does it.

    @ Multi: My preference would be to remain obedient, but since she is not always exerting dominance, sometimes I feel like disobeying just so she can "punish" me. I think it's natural, from what I've seen in other blogs, and something I have to work on.

    Maybe this will become a theme for another post, unless something "good" (i.e. bad) happens in the next couple of days.